Mindfulness of Breathing – Journey 1 Week 10
It’s been a fairly manic week and the meditation sessions have continued to be full of distractions. Thoughts relating to what’s happening in everyday life seem to have had a lot of power. Awareness of the breath has been pushed onto the sidelines, and it’s been very hard trying to bring the focus back.
I don’t want to put too much effort into concentration, as I think it should be more natural and gentle. I’ve been bringing the focus back onto the breath when I can but also have been trying to let the thoughts wear themselves out.
I’m still sitting in a chair to meditate, as my knee is still delicate. I think I’ll have to use the chair for a few weeks, which unfortunately will mean that I’ll have to go through the hassle of adjusting to the cross-legged position all over again.
At the end of the week, my mind has calmed down a bit and I can bring attention back to the breath more easily but concentration is very weak. I feel a bit dazed like I’ve been through a battle and have no mental strength left. I wonder how long it will be before I get back on track.